Monthly Life Rant.
I haven’t been utilising my tumblr recently. I’ve had a bad night and so I’m going to have a go now. Today started with receiving an email from my sister, telling me that there was a job available at her work, admin, $42,000 a year. Excellent. I started getting excited, I was talking to mum about it who got me even more excited, talked to Stu about it and got even MORE excited. My sister started at this company when she was my age as a receptionist, and now, at 38, runs 39 branches across Australia, and is currently in South Africa at the moment watching the world cup final because the company felt like sending her there. Shanghai last month. Africa again in August. New Zealand later this year. I was getting excited, talking to Stu about being able to live somewhere between the offices at the airport and his work in West Lakes, making plans, fantasising. Thinking that this could be the start of a promising career. Then. I get a call from my mum in the night. My sister spoke to her big boss about it, who didn’t think it was a good idea, hiring family.
Straight off the bat, I’m annoyed that she even spoke to me about the job before talking to Bernard (her boss) about it. I got all my hopes up for nothing. She’s usually a pretty precise person so I had just assumed that this wouldn’t be a spur of the moment thought from her.
Now I feel all up in the air. I was making plans for the next couple of years, it was acareer, which is important to me at the moment, and I would have the option of doing uni externally later, which means that’s one last thing I have to worry about right now. I don’t want to stay in my current job (which is just that, a job, not a career) unless I go to uni next year, I have no idea what I want to study at uni (and I don’t really see the point in going through all the stress of exams and assignment and classes if I’m not going to end up using said degree), and I have no idea what I want as a career.
I don’t know what I want to do. Do I just start applying for similar jobs in large companies, hoping to be able to work my way up there? Do I just make a decision and hope I like the uni course I pick? Do I stay at my current job and save up enough to travel again and THEN figure out uni/careers/life? Do I decide to move out with Stu and then be unable to save any money for travel, a new car which will probably be necessary soon, house deposits etc? Do I crawl up in a ball and rock back and forth whilst whispering ‘the shopping’s coming, the shopping’s coming?’. At the moment I’m opting for the last option on that list.
Without sounding overly dramatic, I really don’t want to make the wrong decision.
